I had my first exam today!!! I can finally breathe and be a human again, ha! I’ve had a few busy days because wow, I was so nervous and stressed because of this test. It was history, and that had me very worried. I didn’t seem to understand and remember information, I was just too way out of my mind. I really wanted to do well on this one because if I do very well on both exams I don’t have to take the final, and I really DO NOT want to take the final. No no, I don’t want to, that one will be too hard. This past week I’ve been going to bed around 2am surrounded by books. Fortunately, I think I did well enough. It seems that all the stress is coming out and my anxiety is lowering now because I suddenly feel so tired!
Random comment: When we go to the Red Cross to participate on lectures or talks or plan things or something like that, we usually bring things to share, you know, food and snacks. I have this theory that food brings people together. So this Saturday I’m going to make tiny fried Arepas (Venezuelan food porn here) for all of them! And next Saturday I will make fried plantain chips and every Saturday I will make another Venezuelan stuff haha.
There’s this thing about me that has been bothering me for a while. I’m too boring. I decided that I want to push myself out of my comfort zone, at least a little bit. I feel like I miss so many fun stuff because I’m too shy. Even around familiar people, I always feel embarrassed to do things, or like I’m going to look ridiculous or stupid or that people are going to judge me, I’m too shy. So I always stay there watching while people have fun. Even for taking photos! And this is such a contradiction because I freaking love photography, but I feel so embarrassed when I have to take photos in public, especially if I appear in them, not to mention selfies, gawd! I usually have great ideas for taking pictures, funny pictures, cool pictures, silly pictures. But 90% of them never make it because I feel like everyone is staring and that I look ridiculous. Like, why haven’t I said my name and why do I write this in English when it is not even my first language, because I was freaking afraid that this would seem too stupid to others and they would think it is ridiculous. And this is just a little example, but I’m tired of that. I realized that this is wrong, that I should not care what people will or will not think. I want to talk to people, I want to have fun, try new stuff! I’m tired of being the shy quiet girl.
I know it will be hard and it will take time until I finally make it, but this will be my New Year’s Resolution (yes, I know it is almost the middle of the year, but so what??? Stop judging ugh! Haha). I am determined to accomplish this before 2017 is over. This may be a good time to ask YOU, how are you doing with your New Year’s Resolutions? Tell me! I wanna know about you. It is maybe a good time to go back to what you left unfinished, don’t ya think? It might be a good idea, you know.
Thank you for reading, see you on my next post!
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